DUN DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN.
The word that makes everyone clinch up, sweat, stutter, ect. If any type of presenting is to be done in a class, you can bet your bottom dolla that I'll be the last one to go.
But yesterday was different. I was the first and only one to go. I was asked by the health teacher at my school to give a presentation about my story to the freshman health classes. Naturally, I accepted. I want to spread awareness and put my story out there to help others, so what better opportunity than this, right?!
I dedicated my weekend to creating a 5 minute movie that I wanted to have an everlasting impact on those watching.
Yeeeeaaaah...almost had a couple cases of killing Windows Movie Maker or politely chucking my computer down a flight of stairs. No big deal. Lauryn's patience level hit an all-time low.
The final product = exactly what I wanted. I was ready to show this video and talk for an entire hour in front of 30 freshman.
The morning of, I woke up and immediately felt butterflies having a party in my stomach. I. was. so. FRIGGIN'. nervous.
I was doing pretty good up until I clicked play on the video in the dark classroom full of freshies. My emotions took over me and I started crying. No no no, I'm sorry, correction: I started BAWLING. I can't explain the feeling that took over me; it was all so surreal. The room was so quiet you could hear a pin drop. The movie ended and I flipped on the lights (and man lemme tell you I reaaaaaaally should have been wearing my waterproof mascara; it was like I was making a freaking man made river or something). Everyone was still so quiet and watched me as a walked over to the podium. I was still so overwhelmed with all the emotions from the movie, that I had to step out of the classroom and just cry and collect myself for a few minutes. I walked back in and talked for a good half hour.
That class was so polite and considerate, and I couldn't have asked for a better audience. There was discussion and questions, so again those were kind of hard for me to discuss. But I think I really hit home with these kids. I had people come up to me afterwards reaching out for help, and that's when it hit me.
I want this to go big.
I want to share my story to larger audiences.
Knowing that I left an impact on so many people is such a powerful feeling. I have now taken the steps to get this shown at the middle schools in my community as well if all goes as planned. I think it will hit them hard as well because so many people struggle with this at that age. I mean, that's when my issues started.
To anyone reading this who was in those freshman health classes- thank you. I have never felt so respected by any amount of kids in my life. I can't even put into words how grateful I am to have been able to share my story with a class like you all. It means more than you'll ever know.
Expect to hear more on this from me verrrrrrry soon. :)