"Gaining" New Years Resolutions

We all know the most common and often pushed to the side resolution after we give in to a sweet tooth craving. That resolution being no other than the the famous, "I want to lose weight!". The gym over-floods with people for about a week, and then bam. People fall back into the detrimental Big Mac trap, losing sight of their goals. 

I also am a victim of the Big Mac trap. However, my Big Mac isn't something you eat, but a voice in the back of my mind telling me NOT to eat. Every year I fall victim to this voice, and every year I make a resolution to go along with what the voice is saying. 

Unfortunately yes, any resolution having to do with changing appearance has fallen on my list numerous times. I've had resolutions such as:

1.) Lose weight  

2.) Have a flat stomach and "get abs"

3.) Be toned (A/N: Don't ever say to me that you want to be "toned". Toning is for copy machines or printers) 

4.) Eat less junk food

 Blah blah blah blah blah. We all know that drill. 

As I have been thinking over the last few days on what I should make as some of my New Years resolutions, I thought, "Has anyone ever made a New Years resolution that is the opposite of losing? What about resolutions revolving around gaining ?"    

Thats right. I'm going to be a badass this year (even more than I strive to be now) and go against the odds. I'm going to focus on gaining this year. 

Not gaining weight necessarily (but if I could grow some hella muscles that would be friggin' schweet) , but instead gaining the following things:

1.)  Self-acceptance at all stages 

This one is a toughie for me. Ed seems to only be content with what I look like when I don't feel "fat". Days where I am bloated, feeling a bit fluffy, or just not very confident are days where I struggle the most. I want to strive to try to accept myself at all stages of the game. Whether it's on a day where I'm feeling a bit under the weather, or a day I feel as fierce as Beyoncé.


2.) To successfully pull a 300lb deadlift, upper 200lb squat, and 115-135lb bench press

I've gone from deadlifting 135 for a struggling 6 reps, to 225 for 5 sets of 5, squatting 95lbs with terrible depth to 180 for ass to grass reps, and not gonna mention my bench press progress because I have a poverty bench. All this happened in less than a year (thanks carbs). My knowledge with proper form, technique, and breathing continues to expand everyday. I am completely self-taught. Hell, I'm testing maxes on Friday, so who knows what I'll pull! 


3.) To step outside my comfort zone in college and meet new people 

Being outgoing is hard for me; I've been shy my whole life. It's weird to look back on who I started high school with as my friends, and who I'm ending it with. I would much rather have one true friend, then a bunch of fake ones. So when I venture off to college in the fall of 2016 (yikes, still can't grasp that concept!), I want to step outside my comfort zone and actually try to be social, and talk more than just to my dog (who doesn't?!).


4.) To focus my energy in places other than gym

Don't get me wrong, I will always find time for lifting, because it's truly my "me" time. However, the only miles my car sees are the ones to and from the gym. I want to be and do more than how I preform in the gym.

5.) Compete in a powerlifting competition

Even though this is definitely already in the works (February, baby!), I would like to take on at least one if not two powerlifting meets. Everyone has to start somewhere, and I want to show the world what I work so hard for.

6.) Have a better relationship with my dad

This one is kind of personal for me, but I learned the hard way that keeping stuff inside is not the answer. My daddy was my best friend when I was little, and I would like to get that back in 2016. We've both changed a lot over the years in both bad and good ways, but I would like to find something to bond over again. (Dad, my non-technology savy best friend, Kabachie misses and loves you). 

Don't ask about Kabachie. My dad has a very creative mind when coming up with nicknames.


7.) Become more flexible  

If you asked me to do a cartwheel, you'd end up with me doing some type of tumble and a face plant finale. I have tried to be better about my stretching before and after my lifts this year, and yes I have noticed a huge difference in how low I can get into my squat, I'd like to become Elasta-Girl from The Incredibles. 


Kidding. (Sorta


8.) Be more thankful for my body (especially my stomach)

I've put my body through hell and back. I'm the biggest bully to my body lately, and I hate how it's effecting me. Why should I be so mean to the body who held on when I was hours away from dying? My stomach has been my biggest "enemy" since day 1. I'm not sure how to resolve this, but I want to strive to find more reasons to love it in 2016. I want to truly discover the meaning of the quote,"love your body and it will love you back".

9.) Move recovery off of the back-burner

I struggled in 2015 to try and seperate recovery from fitness. Recovery has been pushed to the back burner because it was becoming too hard for me to handle. I believe I'm at the hardest stages of recovery, because I'm finally at the core of it all. Self acceptance. I need to find the balance between flexible dieting (which has saved my life) and recovery.


And for the 10th and final goal... 

10.) Actually practice these goals

I think that I am a very good writer, but your fellow blogger admits that she never ever practices what she preaches. As my mom reads this (Hi, Mumma) , she is nodding her head in agreeance. I want to see myself how others see me. I want to learn how to use the coping skills I offer. I want to quiet Ed's voice even more than before. I want to win the battle called life


I am more than ready for a fresh start. I believe that 2016 will be the year of a lot of change. Graduating, college, recovery, fitness goals, I am beyond ready for you.